Sunday, July 3, 2011

What is next?

Everyday we set up a plan. Looking towards a better, fruitful, successful, shining day.
Running day to day, week to week, month to month and even year to year... BUT, what is next?

The goals we set, or believe to reach, look like our ultimate dreams. What makes the next step a dilemma, is how it changes depending on the circumstances and the way we think... Once in our life, getting our high school is the ultimate dream, and by doing so we believe (actually think) that we will get to the ultimate level of our life. Well, that was temporary, at least looking at it now after more than 16 years... After I passed that stage successfully, I stopped and thought; "God, I am not even half the way in life yet, I don't know where I am heading or where life is taking me to." At that point I thought again, "what is next?"

I can go on and on and on stating every stage of my life, which I know to a big extent will represent the lives of most people I know or came across in my life.

Every day when I wake up I start by thanking God for giving me the strength to carry on and ask for more. At every thinking stop in my life I thank God for everything I have and for what I will get afterwards. Am I being greedy while hoping for more or am I being ambitious, as business language state?

Having two kids is a bless and a huge burden you wouldn't believe it. People who has such will totally understand what I am mean. This is a bless from God... Can I ask again; "what is next?" Sure, I can always ask, but definitely won't be able to know the answer since days will reveal what is coming next. Now, I am asking myself; "can I do anything?" Some would tell me, "no, you have it all." A family, a car, a stable job and planning ahead to achieve more at both aspects; career & personal. Should I stop here and wait? Looking into my previous years, I shouldn't, however I might need to think more wisely before taking any decision. This had somehow reflected on different sides of my personality & behavior, including how to treat people and how to react to different situations. I remember one day, a colleague of mine stood still after my calm reaction to a situation, at that stage she was confused and then said "we are lucky to have you..." I felt she was cynical, so I asked her about the reason to say so. She simply said "to have someone as calm as you in such situations." Although everyone knows me; family & friends, would tell how easily I can loose temper. It could be true though. One thing made all these things change, thinking of "what is next?"

Knowing that after any situation I can react in tens of ways. However, most of such reactions would affect me negatively. So I learned to think and then react, and I learned it the hard way...

At the time being, I am applying the same principles with my 5 years old daughter. Since she is my oldest, I feel that I treat her as an adult somehow, or at least I treat her older than her actual age. Why, because I want her to be the best and think 10 steps ahead instead of 2 steps. I want her to have that vision and be different from everybody else. People are born with different abilities and skills and it is shaped through interaction with the community and environment in addition to the knowledge being acquired from different sources.

I think the business life has impacted my way of thinking to a huge extent, where everything I am doing is centered around the next stage or the next step. What do I get is another question I am trying to get the answer for every time I think of the next step...